Oh, sorry!!! God, I need to have some sleep with urgence! This private letter was sent to the list for mistake, sorry!!! :((
Uh, instead dying in next Sunday, it will be better to die now! What a shame! :(( On Jun 10, 2016 2:06 AM, "Cecilia Tanaka" <cecilia.tan...@gmail.com> wrote: > On Jun 9, 2016 8:17 PM, <tor_t...@arcor.de> wrote: > the questioning by police is over you will feel relieved. > > > Off Topic till end of mail > > @Cecilia Tanaka > > Sorry if my posts weren't excellent and you feel to post your story and > emotions. you are stronger than you think and your words are beautiful. > > there will be no contract to feel safe from operations like this. > > Hi, tor_talk! How are you doing? :) > > Sorry for writing in private, but I don't want to kill all the people in > the tor-talk list with my always too long and boring messages this time, > haha!! ;D > > Please, don't die of boredom or someone will say that I am a "killer > defending a rapist" and I prefer when they call me "sociopath", haha!! ;D > > Your posts always are excellent and I am thankful for all of them, my dear > tor_talk. Please, never be afraid of being yourself. > > All the times when I read your posts, I think "Oh, I need to study German > again"! I can say "Ich Liebe Dich", "Tschüß", "Apfelstrudel" and > "Milchreis" pretty well, but everybody thinks I am sneezing when I say > "Entschuldigung", haha!! ;) > > Even when speaking Portuguese, I have a kind of "cecilian" accent, a > bizarre mix between Japanese and Italian accents, haha!! When I was > younger, for a considerable lapse of time, Italian was my second language. > My Japanese is a disaster, even being my parents' language, so I never > considered it as being my second language. You can imagine how strange is > when I try to speak English or German, hahaha!!! ;D > > I tried some German several years ago and a little bit after falling in > love with "the sweetest man in the world", mentioned before in another > post. He is a German engineer and saved my life several times in all > possible senses, my dear. > > I am not strong as you think. I never was. I had almost no sleep in the > last days and I've spent my whole day crying because I am missing my lost > love. > > The Brazilian version of "Valentine's Day" will be in the next Sunday, > June, 12, and I want to die all the minutes because I am seeing lots of > sweet hearts and love stuff in all the places and medias and my heart > breaks and breaks in an infinite pain, without never stopping... It will > be my first Brazilian Valentine's Day without a sweet message of him and I > am sure that it will be the longest day of my life and I finally will die > of sadness... :'( > > Ah, sorry for spending so much of your time just explaining why I love > German language and my German engineer and why I am not a strong person at > all, haha!! ;) > > I don't know the reason, but all my German friends have lots of infinite > patience. I really admire and envy it. Don't tell anyone, but I think > that "oriental patience" is not true. I have almost no patience with > anything, uh! :P > > Well, I am a kind of 'zombie' in the last months. I am still alive, but > the best part of me definitely died when he stopped to love me. :'( > > And now I need to learn how to make decent home-made Sauerkraut alone, > uff... Mine stinks. Literally, stinks. And I do love it in sandwiches, > uff... Why does love always make me suffer so much? snif! :'( > > > you wrote: > > ...you didn't scream of pleasure loudly enough for all the neighbourhood > knows > > that I am a good lover! ... > > > > next time give this kind of lover a favor and do screams on tape to play > whenever he visits you ;-) you can tune the volume up accordingly to your > neighborhood. at the end of the tape: the screams you heard doesn't > necessarily have a correlation to the skill or action of my partner. (it > doesn't even necessarily indicate that someone has finished.) > > Hahaha!!! I was just joking, haha!! ;D > > Two years ago, I had a bizarre couple of neighbours and she was pretty > younger than he, an old rich man. So, all the times when they were having > any sexual relation, she always was screaming extremely loud - because he > was almost deaf! - that my neighbours' bizarre sounds became inspiration > for a crazy project of mine at hackerspace, with the help of some > engineers, haha!! ;D > > I was so terribly stressed with all those f*cking sounds - f* sounds in > both senses, haha!! - that, in a long stressing night, when I was > finishing a pretty hard work, and she screamed much louder than my music, I > had a kind of comical revenge... :B > > When she screamed "I am feeling so hot, I am burning, I am in fire!!!", I > screamed "Help, help!!! Call the firefighters!!! She is dying!!!". All > the stressed neighbourhood laughed a lot for a long time, and, two days > after it, the noisy couple moved to another place and I never used my > project, haha!! ;) > > > rape will be an empty word as terrorist is. > > Empty words, stupid labels, lynching people without proofs... Maybe dying > of sadness soon, in this Sunday, will be better than waiting more for the > future... I always had hope and believed in a better world, but, > sometimes, I feel so much fear of being wrong and living just for seeing a > more miserable and sad world, my dear... My heart is already broken. My > death will be pure despair if I live just for seeing my dreams becoming an > even worse nightmare... :'( > > Well, I will pray for a better world and will try to do my part. Let's > cross our fingers and have hope in a better future for all the people, my > dear! :* > > Warm hugs! Have a good night and sweet dreams! :* > > Cecilia > > PS: - I do need to study English. All the times when I try to write > "whether", I don't know why, I write "weather"! Instead, I am using "if" > as a crazy, haha!! ;) > -- tor-talk mailing list - tor-talk@lists.torproject.org To unsubscribe or change other settings go to https://lists.torproject.org/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/tor-talk
