Hey Andres, Firstly let me start by saying the site really looks great. Im really liking the new design and still hoping it gets mirrored across all sites in the project. It is a monumental task for just 1 person and it would have been much nicer if we could have more developers. Especially more developers that commit large amounts of time to single areas to get things done, like yourself.
I hope I speak for most people here, when I say that if you contribute code and effort to the project, then I consider you a friend. And I have plenty of time to talk to friends about their problems if they need it. I also have time to offer reassurance and advice if theyre unsure on their own work. That being said, if you need some time to chill and relax, take it. You might find that after some time you really enjoyed doing all youve done for the project and come back with fresh ideas and optimism. :) No-one expects things to get done over night. If youre feeling pissed off or down, do a bit of work on the site, and commit it. Consider the 'svn commit' command as a great accomplishment, no matter how many lines it commits. This might make you feel better about your commits. Depression is a bastard. It makes you doubt all the good things you do and sucks the whole feeling of accomplishment out of every good little thing you do. I know because I suffer from it too. Most likely not on the same scale, but I know what its like. We're probably not the only ones who suffer from it in the project as people generally dont talk about it. Its a terrible shame as just talking about it with others usually helps. The e-dev mailing list isnt the best place, so feel free to drop me a line. Thank you for all your time, hard work, code and dedication. Toma. On 26 April 2010 01:31, Andres Blanc <[email protected]> wrote: > It should be obvious to you by now that I cannot be trusted. > > But before the whining part and excuses these are the resources I just > committed that might be useful to anyone working with the site: > > dev/lib/ > > Most of the php code is hastly made crap and copy pasted, ignore it, it > just was simpler to me than using the current code but it was not intended > to be used as it is in its current form): > > dev/lib/developers.php > > Has a simpler parser for the svn developer files and the inactive > developer > list as an array instead of an html table like it currently is. > > dev/index.php > > If limonade.php is to be used this file explains how it works, it also has > the mailing lists as arrays. > > dev/pages/english/about.html.php > > Has what I consider the best thing I ever wrote for this project's website > "The History of the Enlightenment Project" > > dev/pages/english/libraries.html.php > > Has a distilled version of the current about page, with some additional > text and various areas that should be dynamic content (the video channel, > in the wild, featured applications). > > dev/materials/ > > A bunch of resources useful for designers along with the svg files from the > current design (which I think sucks, but I made it so I can't complain). > The palette will be useful if used across sites, warmer color for warnings > and colder colors for information. > > dev/cssdev > > Almost devoid of new content, it includes what I have used to create the > CSS in the current dev folder and some code, examples and indications > on how to use this tool in the future. This will really save you time when > the moment comes to maintain a consistent look across the website, trac, > exchange, doxygen, etc. > > trunk/DOCS/devwithedje > > Use anything as you'd like for any book about Edje development, but try to > replace the code with something that takes the new Elementary code > structure as an example pattern. > > http://wiki.enlightenment.org/index.php?title=Special:Contributions&target=Z_en_coder&offset=0&limit=500 > http://wiki.enlightenment.org/index.php?title=Special:Contributions&target=Dresb&offset=0&limit=500 > > These pages have lots of useful information that is not available in the > new wiki and might be slightly outdated. > > And now for the whining part: > ================== > > I have been treated psychiatrically for the last +3 years by same doctor. At > one point I was under the max dose of an awful, life sucking ant-depressant > known as Anafranil, an anti-psychotic drug and various anxiolytics, all at the > same time. > > Each step of the crazy ladder started with a new diagnosis, a different > treatment, a fuck-ton of hope and some small burst of productivity eventually > declining to total inactivity outside the minimal work a person HAS to do. > > I have changed doctors now who are trying to treat this as a non-psychiatric > issue (like some sort of cerebral dysrhythmia, for example), their first > attempt > was in February, it failed, and last Wednesday we started another line of non- > psychiatric treatment. > > It is obvious to me now that I cannot keep making promises each time I start a > new treatment, do some work and then disappear. I had the best intentions but > I > couldn't stop lying to myself thinking "this time will be different, this time > it will work out". > > Sorry for the problems caused, > Andres > > ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ > _______________________________________________ > enlightenment-devel mailing list > [email protected] > https://lists.sourceforge.net/lists/listinfo/enlightenment-devel > ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ _______________________________________________ enlightenment-devel mailing list [email protected] https://lists.sourceforge.net/lists/listinfo/enlightenment-devel
